Back to Square One

Began reading David Platt's book entitled Radical today. Four chapters in and I found myself choked up and on the verge of tears plenty of times.

I am afraid to admit were Jesus to turn to me and say the things he did to the masses at times...I may be one that walked away. I truly might have had I realized how hard it is to follow Him.

As a child it was never presented to me in this fashion. As an adult I cannot deny it is part of the equation.

I'm bumfuzzled to put it mildly. I am depressed to put it melodramatically.

I am daring to ask that He raise a Holy Passion in me to do His will for my life. I am seeking a focus so that I don't feel so scattered and can take action. Which cause should I delve into? There's so many. Yet I can hear myself saying...it's not supposed to be this hard. But when faced with such an enormous black hole in my faith...what more can I do?

I dare you to read this book and not be shaken.